“Then Moses said to the Lord, “O my Lord, I am not eloquent, neither before nor since You have spoken to Your servant; but I am slow of speech and slow of tongue.’So the Lord said to him, “Who has made man’s mouth? Or who makes the mute, the deaf, the seeing, or the blind? Have not I, the Lord? Now therefore, go, and I will be with your mouth and teach you what you shall say.’ “ (Exodus 4:10-12)
I have an amazing young client that I have been working with (I am writing this blog with her permission). Recently we have been tackling some of the lies that she believes about herself, and she has been doing a beautiful job of combating them. A couple of weeks ago I gave her homework of coming up with truths to fight the lies, and also instructed her to ask the Lord for scriptures to solidify the truths.
Last week she came into session excited to share a truth God gave her from the above scripture passage. What was causing Moses to fully embrace God’s calling for his life was the insecurity he had about himself as it pertained to his speech. When God replied to Moses that He would be with his mouth, what God really was saying to Moses was, “I will be with your insecurity”.
I have lived for the Lord long enough to witness that the thing that hinders most of us from becoming who God is calling us to be is our insecurities. Sadly, unlike Moses, many of us just keep these things to ourselves instead of sharing them with the Lord. We sit in silence as we make excuses not to follow God’s plan wholeheartedly. “I’m not smart enough. I don’t have enough time. I am not confident enough. I’m too old. I’m too young. People won’t like me. I don’t have any talent. I have too much brokenness”. On and on the excuses go. I have mine, and you have yours. We all have them.
The thing that separates those who fulfill God’s purpose and those who don’t has a great deal to do with how we handle those insecurities. People who are doing great works in the Kingdom are not free from the paralysis of insecurities, they have learned what to do with them.
Instead of hiding, Moses stayed engaged in dialogue with the Lord. He continued to express his doubts, even though it may have been humbling for him. Moses wasn’t afraid to admit his insecurity to himself, others, and the Lord. He found that for every excuse/insecurity the Lord had a remedy.
What about us? Do we have the tremendous courage it takes to admit these things to ourselves and then to the Lord? The Lord will continue to combat our lies and insecurities, and won’t let us live in them. This is why so many people are comfortable not facing the truth before the Lord. It’s easier to ignore something, than to let the Lord shed light on it, and cause us to face our biggest fears.
Most reading this blog know how the story with Moses turns out. We know that Moses ended up freeing the children of Israel. But Moses didn’t have that benefit and stepped out in faith anyway.
What is it that is hindering you from being all that God wants you to be? What is it that you are deliberately hiding from yourself and not talking to the Lord about? I pray right now that you would be as open as Moses.
Bring that “insecurity” to Jesus. Listen to Him as He tells you that He will be with your insecurity, and that in spite of your fear you can step forward in faith. Not only will He be with your insecurity, but He will teach you (Exodus 4:12) how to maneuver your insecurity.
We have a God who is greater than our weakness! May we allow Him to give us the strength to hand Him our weaknesses.
Kimberly ~ Counselor, speaker, teacher, author and most importantly broken but beloved daughter of Jesus.